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  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: Calling You by Blue October
  • Playing: Tabletop Roleplaying Games
  • Drinking: Cherry Limeaid Fruit Refreshers
I dont know if its because its the second month of school, stress with mid terms approaching or something else but my stomach has been all in knots. You know that feeling, the one you get when you just know something is wrong but not quite sure.

Actually, I have a pretty decent idea. 

I'm pretty sure its gotta do with my writing. Im a writing major and if I cant do that correctly or to the standards I have, how am I going to get anywhere? Nothing I do makes me happy anymore: costuming, drawing, any of that stuff I used to take such pride and joy in. It hardly provides me with any of that. And the things that do, like my tabletop gaming, is sporadic with how games are constantly getting cancelled on me or people dont make it to the games blah blah blah blah.

It's not a fun thing to have in your system. It brings me down too much. It makes me anti social (but then again, when was I a social butterfly anyway?). And honestly, its crippling. 

This mood, this feeling, its at the point where it consumes your waking time when you are not trying to fight off any other feelings that may try to come at you, even happiness. 

Maybe I'm just babbling right now. I don't care. 
  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: Frenchy and the Punk- Le Train
  • Playing: Tabletop Roleplaying Games
  • Eating: Peaches
  • Drinking: Cherry Limeaid Fruit Refreshers
You guys love to tag me for shit, dont you? Ive gotten tagged twice for this thing already so I guess I have no choice but to do this.

1. You must posts these rules. 
    2. Each person has to share 10 things about them 
    3. Answer the 10 questions asked to you and invent 10 questions the people you tag will have to answer 
    4. Choose 10 people and put their icons on your journal 
    5. Go to their page to inform them they are tagged 
    6. Not something like " you are tagged if you read that" 
    7. You have to legitimately tag 10 people 
    8. No tag-backs 
    9. You can't say that you don't do tags. 
    10. YOU MUST MAKE A JOURNAL ENTRY. NO COMMENTS. Unless you're commenting about the actual entry

1: Whats your favorite comic or webcomic at the moment?
To be honest, I dont like comics that much. So nothing at this moment.

2: Any soon to be released horror games you are looking forward to?
Nope. I don't like horror games.

3: PS4 or XboxOne?
XBone? Who plays that? lol PS4 all the way. 

4: What is your favorite internet show? (Like AVGN, Nostalgia Critic, Atop the Fourth Wall and such)
Man At Arms, hands down! I love seeing all the crazy weapons he crafts just because people tell him to do it!

5: How long can you be with any computer or phone?
4 hours at once but then I need to get off my ass and do something else.

6: Do you have any youtube lets player? 
Nope. 

7: What is the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning?
Uhhh, go to the bathroom and then plot my plans for world domination. 

8: Whats the color of your socks you are currently wearing?
My skin. I dont wear socks in the summer, silly!

9: Do you prefer to draw on paper or on tablet?
Paper. A tablet is nice but my pen is so screwed up it makes it very difficult to draw with it. I like the feeling of a pencil or pen in my hand over a tablet pen. 

10: Would you like some cake? =3
I-is it chocolate? -makes puppy dog eyes- Wants cake!

My 10 questions are:
1) What is your favorite animated movie? Films by non-western movie makers (like Miyazaki) are included. 
2) If you could have a superpower, what would that be? 
3) FUS RO DAH! Ever played any of the Elder Scrolls games and if so, which one?
4) Ice cream or sno cone?
5) Big fan of roller coasters? If so, whats your favorite one?
6) What's your biggest fear? 
7) In a tabletop RPG, what race and class would you pick?
8) Do you cosplay?
9) Favorite season?
10) Have you ever been to Popeyes?

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  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: Frenchy and the Punk- Le Train
  • Playing: Tabletop Roleplaying Games
  • Eating: Peaches
  • Drinking: Cherry Limeaid Fruit Refreshers
Maybe it's just because of this bout of particurily bad depression and stress coming from moving on in my life. Maybe. I'm not quite sure anymore.

I just seem to be loosing an interest and hobby that I have had for the longest time. I'm talking about my costuming and crafting hobby.

I have no idea when it started up. Maybe when I was in middle school and I didn't like any of the Halloween costumes out in stores: I couldnt find anything that would hide my side flabby rolls and was extremly shy about my physical appearance and how clothes made me look. It just kind of took off from there, leading me to make everything from seers and necromancers to blue-haired ninjas and wolf-bodied Shinto goddesses.

But now, it's like that roaring flame is dwindling down to a slowly passing ember in a charcoal pile. Lately I haven't had that creative spark in me to make all these ideas I wish I could do. I'm surrounded by people on their Facebook pages, showing all the work they are doing for so many damn costumes. And I wish I could keep up with them. Red Mage is coming out really damn slowly, and I had a massive paint spill all over the fabric that could have spelt near disaster if my somewhat level-headed boyfriend hadn't acted so quickly.

In my brain there are two ideas dancing away: one of a steampunk-dieselpunk shaman or magic user and the other is a circus performing faerie (I'm thinking a dark faerie or one in the Unseelie court, if anyone knows what I'm talking about) but there are literally no ideas to draw out and create before I go off to school for the semester.

Halp please. Wherever my muse has scampered off to, I feel as if I am doomed right now to have something I've worked too hard on for these past several years escape me. I rarely enjoy what I do, rarely have a sense of accomplishment when I finally get cracking on a project. It just feels all for naught and nothing seems to change it. Not to mention my panic attacks don't help either, which loom overhead like the worse storm cloud you can even imagine.

Hoping to come over both of these things sooner rather then later.
  • Mood: Distressed
  • Listening to: Frenchy and the Punk- Le Train
  • Watching: RWBY
  • Playing: Tabletop Roleplaying Games
  • Eating: Peaches
  • Drinking: Cherry Limeaid Fruit Refreshers
I know, I know, its been a long time as of late since I've updated or touched my dA page at all, but I've been going through a particularily rough patch of my life right now.

In the fall I'm leaving my current college to venture to a four year one. Its not terribly far from me but the anxiety caused from it is definitely not healthy for me. Well, thats just one issue thats been plaguing me.

I constantly find myself undergoing panic attacks or moments of extreme emotional flux that strike at the most in-opportune moments: when I am out with friends, when I am with my dear boyfriend, etc. It strikes at me like a cobra hidden in tall grass, without the victim never knowing when it will come out.

Its not a fun way to live my life, but I have to make due with it somehow. I just hope I manage to struggle onward and not fall to this little demon yelling at me from the shadows and having a constant sense of self-doubt in my brain.

 - Faith
  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: Calling You by Blue October
  • Playing: Tabletop Roleplaying Games
  • Drinking: Cherry Limeaid Fruit Refreshers
I dont know if its because its the second month of school, stress with mid terms approaching or something else but my stomach has been all in knots. You know that feeling, the one you get when you just know something is wrong but not quite sure.

Actually, I have a pretty decent idea. 

I'm pretty sure its gotta do with my writing. Im a writing major and if I cant do that correctly or to the standards I have, how am I going to get anywhere? Nothing I do makes me happy anymore: costuming, drawing, any of that stuff I used to take such pride and joy in. It hardly provides me with any of that. And the things that do, like my tabletop gaming, is sporadic with how games are constantly getting cancelled on me or people dont make it to the games blah blah blah blah.

It's not a fun thing to have in your system. It brings me down too much. It makes me anti social (but then again, when was I a social butterfly anyway?). And honestly, its crippling. 

This mood, this feeling, its at the point where it consumes your waking time when you are not trying to fight off any other feelings that may try to come at you, even happiness. 

Maybe I'm just babbling right now. I don't care. 

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Faith, A Girl Stuck Eternally in Faerie-Land
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United States
- Place of Residence: USA, Earth, Milky Way
- Amateur Cosplayer, Dragon Artist, Perpetual Weirdo

Good day, boys and girls of every age! The name is Faith, or 'flaminngchibi', as you may like to call me by.

What to know about me?
- Self-taught artist who mostly draws dragons and Celtic art. Mostly.
- I take commissions for the two said topics above.
- I do some cosplay, which I constantly am thinking of and trying to attempt doing despite being in college.
- My favorite game, hands-down, is Okami. If you'd ever like to talk about said game, please Note me! Second most liked game is the Kingdom Hearts series.
- Anime Preference: Ayakashi Mononoke, Black Butler, Fairy Tail
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Throne-of-the-Roses Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014
thank you so much for the fav ^^
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ArtemisiaDark Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2014
Thank you for the fav ! :aww: :heart:
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Keiko22 Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: :glomp: I haven't heard from you in a while, how's life treating you hun? :hug:
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flamingchibi Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014
Is much stressful over here, with how I move into my college dorm on Sunday! 
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Keiko22 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
that's awesome!! What are you gonna study? :D
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flamingchibi Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014
Writing Arts! IMMA BE SMARTEST PERSON.

Today's been tough though. Last day I get to see my good friends over here before I go away, and I'm hurting all over because that also means I wont see my boyfriend for a while....
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these-grey-skies Featured By Owner May 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Faith! (haha Hey remember me?!) I saw you on the anime next group! You going next weekend?
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flamingchibi Featured By Owner May 31, 2014
Yes I am! : D
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:iconthese-grey-skies:
these-grey-skies Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I added you on Facebook! I am too. We should meet up for a bit or something. :3
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DocSkavenger Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I'm glad you appreciated my work! :D
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